I went to the doctor and she agreed that I should have medication to help with the way I’ve been feeling. Because I have Cystic Fibrosis I am on 20+ medications, one of them being a certain antibiotic that I am on every other month, (I’m on antibiotics 24/7, if not I will get fevers within two days), I can’t take any anti depression meds. Apparently, that one drug doesn’t mix well with literally any of the anti depressants on the market. Just my luck. Of course, I can’t stop taking that antibiotic because it is one of the very few (two to be exact) that actually work for me. I am screwed. SO, of course, things aren’t any better and I have no idea what to do next. Therapy I feel like isn’t working, but I’m still going regardless. I’ve been going to the gym so much that I feel like my legs are going to fall off. I read somewhere that going to the gym is supposed to help with getting happy. If someone out there has an suggestions please comment. Help a girl out.
Tomorrow I go to a family doctor to talk about what kind of meds to get on. I’m nervous and kind of scared honestly. I’ve never had to be on any kind of medication for depression/anxiety before and I’m still on the fence about it. The only thing that is making me do it is knowing it is best for me and the people around me. I don’t want to keep feeling this way anymore. Whatever medication they decide to put me on, I hope it works. I’m afraid that it will do more damage than good. I also don’t like the thought of myself going to a doctor I’ve never met and telling her everything, but I have to.